I often have very strange and extremely vivid dreams. I also used to have a lot of deja vu. It's not quite as common now but it still happens. But my dream life has intensified.
Here's an example of a dream I had this year, unedited from when I wrote it down:
Dream Tuesday, April
19, 2016
It started out as a justice mission of some kind. We were in
some kind of huge building. I had an M16 again for the first time since the
military. First I was on a metal walkway a few floors up looking down on an
open area. My comrades and I readied ourselves and the people in charge told me
what I needed to do. When the people started coming I soon found myself on a
shooting rampage. I moved throughout the compound. At one point an SUV was
coming towards us when I was outside the building. I shot out the tires.
Another point I shot a driver in the head of another vehicle from a distance.
Another point I shot someone in the shoulder without killing them. A bunch of
these things happened.
Then suddenly none of my comrades were around and I was
still going on this shooting spree. Very soon I was a wanted man. I was on the
run. I found myself in a building, which looked like Room 3 of the church I
grew up in back home, and I was grabbing clothes, trying to avoid anyone
noticing my presence. I packed up quickly, throwing things in a backpack,
knowing I needed to get away quickly. Once I packed up, I started to sneak out.
a good bit of time had passed and I was walking down
the street, avoiding the gaze of people, because I knew I couldn’t go to jail.
It was a sunny day, spring it seemed. I passed a couple kids without looking at
them.
Then it was years later and I was at a house. Next door was
my old house and I needed to grab clothes from there. I walked across the lawn
of the current house and a little girl sat on a swing, her long hair covering
her face and flowing down to her knees, head bowed. As I passed her head came
up and back, face slightly up toward the sky and her mouth opened wide in a
circle, a horrific sight, and a terrible moaning sound escaped her mouth. I ran
to the other house, crouching as if that would help me not be seen. I went in
and rummaged through the clothes. Not feeling I really had time, I ended up
just grabbing a bunch without thinking about what I was taking. When I went
back to the first house the girl was still there and she did the same thing. I
seemed to imitate her sound as a response, seemingly out of trying to diminish
the fear. She continued her open mouthed unnatural moan and as I walked away I
flipped her off with both hands. She seemed to laugh in a way. In the middle of
all this I realized when I first saw the girl that she was the child of
something that had happened earlier, some demented source of something wrong
and I think I had something to do with the things creation.
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